Mrs. Doubtfire (or the Unexpected Legacy of Divorce)

As a young boy, it was not unusual for me to cry during movies. And no other movie made me cry more than Mrs. Doubtfire. The movie, starring Robin Williams, was a story all too familiar to me about divorce and the longing of a child for his or her parents to be back together again. I've been thinking about Mrs. Doubtfire a lot lately. That's because, 22 years later, I still struggle to make sense of my parents' own divorce.
Whenever I am asked about my childhood, I invariably start out by mentioning that my parents got divorced when I was three years old. Only after that do I go on to mention my lifelong dream of becoming a professional wrestler or a Ninja Turtle. I never thought anything about this until I read about how children from intact homes describe their adolescence in The Unexpected Legacy of Divorce. Generally, their childhood isn't defined by a failed dream. It focuses on the positive social relationships that they had with their friends. While I have memories of playing outside with friends, I have stronger memories of the absence of a family and longing for a happy mom and a present dad.

There are a lot of negative emotions that are involved in divorce. Those of the parents, of course. However, I have come to discover that a lot of my feelings about life and relationships have been branded by divorce as well. Guilt, anxiety, fear, and depression are daily intruders in my life. Nothing scares me more than losing my wife to a sudden loss of her attraction to me. Thankfully, she does a wonderful job of reassuring me that such a fear is unreasonable and that she will always be around. Still, I can't help but compare my idea of marriage as a result of my personal experience with it to hers as a child of a loving, intact family.

When your only model of a successful husband-wife relationship fails to correctly model for you, you are forced to create your own moral code instead. As a 25 year old husband and father, I work relentlessly on this every day. Still, while I am forging a relationship of my own without a template to work from, I am also trying to fill in the gaps to better understand who I have become and how I view the world as a child of divorce.

Movies about divorce, such as Mrs. Doubtfire, dominated the big screen landscape as I grew up. And I cried because they hit home for me. I related to them, and I tried to find solutions for me from them. The unexpected legacy of divorce will always be a part of my life. However, because it is, I am able to say that it won't be for my daughter.

A Stomach Virus, a Bengal Tiger, and a Lesson Learned

I have read a lot about effective parenting since becoming a father. I understand how to respectfully communicate with my daughter. I know the process required to help her learn how to sleep on her own in her crib. I am able to establish a flexible routine for her daily activities. And I even sense the subtle nuances in her cries. Isn't that what women dream about in a spouse and father? Eh . . . sort of.

Of all the books that I have read on parenting styles and child psychology and development, none told me about one of the most important skills of an effective parent: shared control. I would like to attribute that to the bias that most of these books are written with: for mothers' eyes only! However, I am not that naive. My "single-parenting" approach seemed okay. I wasn't even aware of what I was doing. Heck, I was just having fun being a dad. But then I saw the tears.

I learned that my wife felt like our daughter was my daughter. There is a lot of truth to that. As hard as I tried to change, the strain on our relationship continued to fester. Luckily for my wife, so did my guts!

Last Sunday morning, I ended up with diarhea that would make Betty White jealous. That turned into vomiting that registred on the Richtor Scale. Six relaxing hours later, I ended up in the emergency room with IVs and a morphine drip (which explains the Bengal Tiger that was standing next to my bed). I spent four days in the hospital, diagnosed with a severe gastrointestinal virus and dehydration.

I hadn't thought about it at the time, but my wife wouldn't be able to stay the nights with me at the hospital. She had our daughter to take care of. So, I was left alone most of the time to my thoughts and that damned Bengal Tiger.

While I was making a cameo in the Lion King, my wife had no choice but to take care of our daughter on her own. That meant feeding her, playing with her, bathing her, changing her, putting her to bed, the whole kit and kaboodle. And guess what! When I came home everything was perfectly fine.

Even though I am home, the doctor told me to keep my hands off of everyone just in case I am still contageous. So, instead of taking my place next to the crib, helping my daughter to get ready to fall asleep I stood in the doorway and watched my wife do it instead. And she did it better than I do.

I don't believe that a virus bore into my tummy to teach me a lesson. But I am grateful that it did so that I could experience being away from my family and having to watch my wife do what I once thought I did best.

That's not all I learned in my lonesome hospital bed. I also learned that Bengal Tigers are very friendly predators.

Haiku Baby

Fatherhood has changed me. That should be obvious. It has changed my blogging too. Therefore, I will be blogging about my most recent misadventures in fatherhood in Haikus. Enjoy.

My baby screams.
It's so late. What time is it?
She is so grounded!

That was disgusting.

She was just constipated.

It came all at once!

Warm bath before bed.

Bubbles in the bath water.

Homemade jacuzzi.

Driving to Utah

used to only take three hours.

A babe makes it five.

Where is my money?

Her closet is full of clothes

that no longer fit.

I'm writing a book

for my daughter to treasure.

Both, my pride and joy.

Many sleepless nights.

When will headaches go away?

Life is beautiful.



An Increase in Patience

I can still vividly remember clutching my ears in bed as our newborn baby wailed through the night and thinking that I had been sentenced to a life of sleepless frustration and migraines. It was just a few weeks ago (Harper is just over 7 weeks old now), but I feel like those agonizing midnight marathons were much further in the past. That is because I gave exponentially grown in my capacity to be patient, and my expectations have changed about how I will sleep each night. I owe my increase in patience to being able to see my daughter for what she really is, a human being with needs. Not an object or a project, as soon as I began viewing my baby girl as a unique individual I came to the realization that she has needs similar to mine.

Where my dominant needs have "evolved" into daily cans of Coke, a couple free hours on Monday nights to watch professional wrestling, and time each day to read a book, Harper's needs should be respected and met too. Her cries are not curse words, shunnings, or outbursts of anger. I recently read that babies aren't developmentally capable of feeling such strong emotions. They are her way of telling Mom and Dad that a)she is hungry b)she needs her diaper changed c)she is uncomfortable (which can really mean a lot of things) or d) she is either overtired or overstimulated. Nowhere in the parenting literature that I have read have I come across a type of cry that means that baby is bored and wants to ruin her parents slumber too.

Fortunately, my daughter understands that her "Old Man" is very watchful and analytical in my approach to diagnosing a problem. She, along with most babies give her parents certain cues to let them know that she has a need that needs to be met. If I am not paying close attention to her (example: during the main event of Monday Night RAW), those subtle cues go unnoticed and escalate into more audible cries for help. Still, babies cry to communicate with caretakers, and I have learned to respect those once annoying shrills as my diapered bucket of love talking to her daddy. So, I talk back as I observe her body language and think through our routine attempting to pinpoint what need she wants met.

That leads to how my expectation about how I will sleep each night has evolved. The best thing that I have done to make the quality of sleep that I get better is changing my attitude about waking up at night. I now EXPECT to be woken up at some point during my sleep, and I look forward to comforting my daughter to the best of my ability. I enjoy those "crisis" moments when my brain focuses on the important information as a means of identifying a problem and creating a solution. No longer do I throw off the covers and curse the night air as I put on a happy face before stomping into the nursery to "quiet things down."

As a result of increasing my capacity for patience, and realigning my expectations, I have grown in my ability to love and be a supportive father and husband. As a third grade teacher, I often joke that managing 23 8 and 9 year olds is a lot less exhausting that taking care of a 7 week old baby. But honestly, I don't think there has been more than a handful of days at work that I haven't sneaked out of the building before my contract day is over. It's not because I hate what I do at school. I like it. It's because I love what I do at home more.

Rock-A-Bye-Bye

When I turned 25 only a few days after my daughter was born the only thing I asked my family for was a rocking chair. I was a dad now, for Heaven's sake. I wanted to join the rest of the parents around the world who must rock their child to sleep. Or so I thought. Wasn't that the best way to put an overtired baby to sleep? I thought so. But I soon found out that there were more effective ways for me to tuck my tuckered out daughter into her crib for a peaceful night's sleep . . .until the next feed that is.

Routine has become a key word around our home now that we are are racing around the parenting learning curve like everyone else does. We hang on that word as well as with these words: predictable, responsive, and communication. These four ideas stand as the pillars in our exciting, new life as parents. Where I seem to think about them most is at bedtime.

My wife and I tried, and tried . . .and tried to establish an evening routine for Harper shortly after we arrived home with our brand new bucket of love, but it was easier said than done. As each child (and parent) has a unique temperament (or way of responding to things) a bedtime routine has to be as unique as an individual's fingerprint. Through trial and error and error and error we honed in on what works best for our daughter and for us, and we are now finding a semblance of consistancy that allows mama and papa to go to bed at a reasonable time again.

Our routine was inspired by Secrets of the Baby Whisperer by Tracy Hogg. Eat-Activity-Sleep-You Time (E.A.S.Y.) is about as easy as it sounds. Using Ms. Hogg's techniques to support her E.A.S.Y. methodology, my wife and I have found more patience with our child and with each other, and time for ourselves again.

Our E.A.S.Y. bedtime routine looks like this. Typically, I do the nighttime feeding since mama has been flying solo most of the day. It might sound backward, but I begin by burping our baby before we start feeding. I've noticed that she takes in a lot of air just through breathing, and this premeal burp tends to speed the intake of whatever's on the menu. As soon as she's expressed her ladylike manners or shown me that there wasn't enough gas buildup to burp I lay her head in the crook of my arm and offer her a bottle. I stroke her cheek to stimulate her sucking reflex (and keep her from falling asleep with the bottle in her mouth) and talk to her about our day and prepare her for what will happen from that point on until she is left to her sleep.

Once her tummy is satisfied (generally after a 4 oz. feed), we move on with our routine as I explain everything that is happening as we go along. "Now, I am going to set you down on your changing table and take you out of the clothes that you wore today. . .What pretty little legs you have. I can see that you are tired by the way that you are wiggling them. . .Before we go to the kitchen for your warm bath, I need to change your messy diaper. I know you don't like it much, but it needs to be done. So, I will keep my free hand on your tummy while I wrap you up in a clean diaper as quickly as I can."

Having had my wife fill up the sink basin with warm water beforehand, the naky baby express moves out there, and my wife and I bathe Harper together. This has become a nice bonding experience for the three of us as we watch and laugh as Harper responds her "my-size-hot tub" by flapping her arms and legs, eyes as round as gumballs. The conversation continues here as we let Harper know what is happening and even ask her how it feels.

From her bath we return to the changing table to dress her for bed while the blanket that we will swaddle her in warms up in the drier. At this point, she is definitely telling us that she wants to call it a day and hit the sack, which we expect and listen attentively to.

With a freshly-warmed blanket and a baby to swaddle, we complete our routine before going to sleep ourselves. I like to spend a little extra time next to Harper's crib before she goes to bed, shhhhhh-ing in her ear, offerring her a pacifier, and reassuring her that after I leave the nursery I will still be able to hear her if she needs me. After a kiss and an "I love you" I walk out of her room, Harper still awake so that she can have the opportunity to learn how to fall asleep by herself.

It is here that pass by my rockingchair too, unused after the sun has gone down. While there might be rocking during the daytime while her momma holds her or I read her a story, there is much more bonding and learning at bedtime as we go through the predictable steps of our routine. There is nothing as heartwarming as the sight of a slumbering baby, which is what I imagined holding as I wished for my rocker. But there is nothing as reassuring, as a new father, as knowing that getting to that sleeping child will be as E.A.S.Y. as it was the night before that and the night before that.

Bibliophile Baby (or 1,000 books by age 1)

I love reading. It is an integral aspect of my life as an elementary school teacher. Books of all shapes and sizes. Now, I want to structure reading into my daughter's life as well. I hope it never becomes a chore for her to read. Rather, I want my free time to be interrupted with requests to come read to her, with her, or listen to her read to me. Naturally, I've introduced reading as a joyful experience to my daughter from the start.

When we first came home from the hospital I would read aloud to her whatever I was reading, which happened to be parenting books. Aware that the content of what I read doesn't have meaning to her yet, I was simply trying to calm and comfort her with the sound of my voice reading fluently and with inflection. However, my attention soon turned to the access to children's books available in the school's library where I work. I pass through there dozens of times per day to get to the teacher work room, the cafeteria, the office. It serves as a shortcut across campus and offers the benefit of walking under a skylight that floods the aisles between bookshelves with natural sunlight. Instinctively, I pass through as part of my daily routine. But I hadn't realized the opportunity for a teacher to take home books until this past week. So I stopped by after school to find a few stories to read to Harper at bedtime.

With Dr. Seuss' birthday around the corner, it seemed obvious to check out one or two of his tongue twisters. I brought home Oh, the Thinks You Can Think and Did I Ever Tell You How Lucky You Are. They both seemed to resemble the attitudes I have projected on my offspring. That evening, after her evening feed and diaper change, I laid out a blanket on the floor and cuddled up on it with my six-week old bundle of joy, and we read. She didn't offer her critiques of the books afterward . . . even though I asked her what she thought. But it fulfilled the "activity" requirement in our eat-activity-sleep routine, and I almost made it out of the nursery without turning a simple activity into a personal challenge.

I should have run out instead of walk. That extra time probably gave my brain the pause that usually turns ordinary into extraordinary. But the it happened, and the thought occured to me. What if I brought home just three books each day and read them to Harper. That would end up being somewhere near 1,000 books read to her by the time she turns one year old. And so a challenge materialized.

The next day was a Friday before a three-day weekend, and I stocked up--enough books to read three each day of the extended weekend. Not only had I decided to read to my daughter each day of her young life, I decided to start a journal to record the title of each book that I read to her to be given to her as something of a sentimental treasure down the road in her future.

I do not have empiracal, scientific proof to support that my 1,000 book initiative will rear a bibliophile like her dad, but the time that we've spent together on the floor or in my lap already has been worth the time. We've read Where the Wild Things Are, How Does a Dinosaur Say 'I Love You'?, The Listening Walk and more. I've actually read her all of the books that I checked out for our long weekend, and we still have a day and a half left. While my arbitrary goal is to create a list of books for my daughter to use as a boost to her confidence as she becomes an independent reader herself, the experience of laying down on a nursery floor to read my childhood favorites to my firstborn only to turn my head to see her gazing up at her bookworm of a dad is satisfaction enough for me.

DADurday

Momma went back to work today which meant that I had my first one-on-one day taking care of Harper. Some might call it "Mr. Momming", but I have dubbed it "DADurday." In my opinion, DADurday is the best day of the week.

This DADurday started around 2 a.m. when I got up for Harper's first "dream feed" of the night. Since Mama had a full day at the salon coming up, I decided to take the majority of the night shift feedings so that she could sleep. The silence of the night is a little dull, so Harper and I usually listen to Jack Johnson while she eats and falls back asleep. It has become a soundtrack to this part of our life that I will never forget.

While Harper usually eats quite regularly at three hour intervals, I was unexpectedly awakened at 4 a.m. by her grunts and cries through the monitor at my bedside. When I picked her up from her crib she wasn't showing any hunger cues. Instead, she was trying to pass gas. I laid her down on a blanket on the floor, rubbed her tummy, and tooted right along with her. I couldn't help but laugh, wondering if my sleeping wife could hear our shenanigans through the nursery monitor.

Hours later, as Mama left for work, Harper and I sat down for a hefty 100 mL breakfast in our P.J.s. Bathtime was next for both of us. Wrestling a greased pig is easier than trying to bathe a skinny, soapy, screaming preemie! I was impressed to find that our $10 baby tub had a jacuzzi setting, but soon realized that it was my well-mannered princess farting in the bubble bath.

Successfully dressed (and styling), we set off for a daddy-daughter drink date at Sonic. Me with my cherry Sprite and Harper with her bottle, we basked in the warmth of an unusually sunny February afternoon as we took the long way home.

The rest of our day was filled with dancing in the livingroom to Gwen Stefani and Gym Class Heroes, tummy time, and (best of all) Grandma Nalder's arrival from Salt Lake City for her first visit since Harper was born one month ago today.

While our DADurday isn't over yet, I can't help but think, as I look back at our pictures from the day and watch a loving grandma nap with her first grandchild in her arms, that today was one of the best day's ever. Isn't that what DADurdays are all about?

Coping with Colic

Colic is a b*#!%--to put it politely. The past few nights have been filled with unconsolable crying for hours on end. And that has just been me. Harper's colic is a whole different issue. What a horrible trick colic is. The more I read up about it, the more I come to the conclusion there's not much you can do but cope. That's tough, especially when you don't do well when things are out of your control. Fortunately, there is a lot you can do to understand how to cope with colic while it "rides its course" back to Hell.

Understanding the causes of colic helped me to seperate the crying from who my baby really is. As I understand it, colic is inconsolable crying by an otherwise healthy baby. In premature babies, it is believed that colic may be the result of immature digestive tracts, which cause gassy build up in your baby.

Before setting out to learn more about colic, my wife and I tried to calm our daughter's cries by constantly feeding her, changing her diaper, burping her, holding her, singing to her, on and on and on . . .with no success. During her first episode, I had to carry Harper from the bassinet in our bedroom to the crib in her nursery and let her cry while my wife and I sobbed from frustration, exhaustion, and a sense of helplessness (Was she crying because we were bad parents?). Surely not, but we didn't realize it then.

After our second night of listening to those colicky cries, I started looking for answers. That's when I learned that there is a limit to what you can do. Fortunately, there are things to do to ease the symptoms of colic. Swaddling, burping, and side/stomach holding are suggested, but the first signs of reprieve for us have come from an iPod. White noise, commonly associated with vaccums, radios, and air conditioners, has a tendency to calm crying babies. The idea came to my wife and I to Google search "free downloadable white noise mp3" and load a looped track onto an old iPod. We played that baby right next to Harper's crib all night long. Man, the sound of a washing machine has never sounded so sweet.

We listened to the faint, cyclical hum through the baby monitor that we put next to the crib and noticed a decrease in crying. For those instances where our daughter really kicked her crying into gear, and there was nothing more we could do, the monitor volume went down and the washing machine went up. We could still hear her crying, and responded to her needs, but simply moving her from our bedside and into her nursery next door was the best thing we could have done to start coping with colic.

Respectful Communication (and a Johnny Cash diaper changing song)

I'm a major left-brained person. Language and words are my second love. Naturally, they flood my relationship with my baby daughter. I talk to her a lot, and she communicates with me as well. I tell her about my day (even asking her about hers), describe things that I am doing and seeing, I sing her songs, and dabble in nonverbal communication by mimicking her facial expressions. However, healthy communication is a two-way street and involves a lot of listening by daddy too.

Last night, I told my wife that I would take the 2 a.m. late night feeding for her so that she could get a longer block of sleep than usual (my normal late night shift is the 5 a.m. slot). And though the silence of the night was shattered by that identifiable newborn cry, I responded to my daughter by listening. From there, we enjoyed an hour long two-way conversation without the distractions of the day to interrupt us.

"Harper, I hear you crying. It sounds like you're hungry. Would you like me to pick you up out of your bassinet to bottle feed you?" I didn't expect a well thought out answer. I did want to let her know that Dad understands her feelings, however. I did my best to communicate that respectfully.

As we walked through the darkness of the house I stopped by the lightswitch to the kitchen. "Harper, I am about to turn on the light. I know that you are sensitive to the light, so be prepared for a little shock to your system." While she didn't say, "Gee, thanks, Dad." I do believe that babies, like toddlers, tweens, and adults appreciate transition time and not being caught by surprise.

With a warm bottle of breast milk in hand, we sat down in a dimmer living room. "Now, Harper, I'm going to rub the nipple of this bottle on your cheek. You need to root and find it in order to get the milk from inside. Let me know if it is too warm when you start drinking it." As she latched on and started to suck, I could see by the look on her face that the milk was just right for her.

As she drank at her own pace, I sang made-up songs to her, including my own rendition of Johnny Cash's "Ring of Fire", which I titled "Stinky Diaper". I told her that I was tired, but still enjoying the time that we had to bond with one another, and I made frequent eye contact with her to let her know that I was there for her and in-tune with her.

We went through the same scenarios as I changed her dirty diaper before putting her back in her bassinet.

"Harper, I'm going to lay you down now so I can change your diaper."

"I know you don't like having your diaper changed, so I will do it as quickly as I can."

"You're doing such a good job at using your hands to calm yourself down."

"Yay! We're done. Would you like to go back to bed now?"

Through using respectful communication with my daughter I have not only been able to bond with her. I feel like I understand the language of her cries better. I respond more appropriately. She is calmer during transitions from place to place and activity to activity. But more important to me, I'm setting the groundwork for a lifelong relationship with her where communicating with Dad is safe and expected. I'm letting her know that I want to understand her feelings and desires. I'm letting her know that there are boundaries that she must stay within. And she is letting me know that she hears what I say and that it makes a positive difference to her. How invaluable will that be once she is a teenager?

What Atticus Finch Taught Me About Raising My Daughter

To Kill A Mockingbird is my favorite novel. My wife and I love it so much, we named our daughter after Harper Lee, the author. There's nothing special about Harper Lee, the person that made us name our daughter after her. Rather, it was what she created that inspired the name. To Kill A Mockingbird is a classic coming-of-age tale framed in the theme of childhood innocence. While the narrator is a matured Scout, the protagonist of this novel is her father, Atticus Finch.

Atticus is a man of character and grit. A lawyer, he is a principled man of moral fortitude, humble virtue, and consistency. To anyone who has read the book, you understand when I say that Atticus Finch reminds you of the best that your own dad had to offer. A hero of mine, I want to be Atticus Finch for my daughter. And that means teaching her principles of right vs. wrong, instilling humility in her heart, and being consistently commited to her education and well-being.

Rules based on principle are a defining point when examining Atticus' character. As a new father, I sat my wife down at the dinner table and laid out a plan for establishing principle-based guidelines and rules for Harper's well-being as well. Rather than declare what I wanted for our daughter and coerce my wife into accepting my desires, we both wrote down our ultimate goal for Harper in life, and then we compared what eachother wrote. Surprisingly, we both almost wrote the same thing. In a nutshell, we want to help our daughter to be a faithful servant of Jesus Christ; a self-aware, conscientious woman with high standards of morality, a heightened sense of love for her family, and a strong sense of self-worth and respect.

From there, we worked backwards. We listed guidelines and rules that we felt would aid in our efforts to guide our daughter to this "end point" that we envision for her. Surprisingly again, we agreed on the value of eachother's ideas and established a foundation for behavior for Harper, just like Atticus had for Scout and Gem, his two kids.

While some items on our list are generic for the culture that we live in, others seem to be quite unique in contemporary society. However, they are based on principles that lead to our goal for our daughter. Here are three that we agreed on: 

1. Our daughter will not be allowed to date until she is 16, and will not be allowed to have a boyfriend until she is in college.
• This rule is based on our desire for Harper to develop a sense of who she is, what she wants from life, and where she wants to go without the distraction and heartbreak of serious relationships.We want her to focus on developing friendships rather than a sense of ownership over or by another person.
2. Our daughter will be expected to come directly home after school, and she will be expected to outline her social plans to us before being allowed to leave home.
• In a time where stay-at-home moms are becoming a novelty, children, especially tweeners and teenagers, are being "trusted" to take care of themselves and decide what is right, wrong, safe, and dangerous while their brain is still in the process of developing the capability to make these decisions. Our focus is on our family, not a percieved sense of trust. Our expectation is that our daughter will touch base with one of us before she goes out to socialize. This will ensure that she is engaged in approved activities with reputable people at a location that we are aware of and can contact her if we need to do so.
3. Our daughter will not be allowed a personal television or computer in her bedroom.
• While pornography is ubiquitous on the internet, the principle at work here is developing interpersonal communication skills and avoiding e-bullying. Girls are social creatures. That is biological. "Socializing" over Facebook chat, IM, and e-mail is not. Emoticons fail to develop the ability to read nonverbal cues in others. Actual face time with physical human beings doesn't.

While Atticus Finch didn't have to worry about Scout or Gem learning about love in the back of a car, wondering where each child was when they failed to come home at curfew, or try to reason with an 8-year old girl who was plugged-in to her social circle, he did have expectations relevant to his era. They were based on principles. If you don't believe me, consider the parental philosophy of To Kill A Mockingbird's antagonist, Bob Ewell. In essence, he killed his children by failing to lead by principle. My daughter is my mockingbird. And Atticus always said, "Remember, it's a sin to kill a mockingbird."

Bonding with My Baby through Infant Massage

I was sitting in the waiting room at the pediatrician's office today, perusing one of many parenting magazines targeted toward moms when I came across an article about the benefits of baby massage. My interest peaked as a result of seeing infant massage mentioned in a few "best practices for baby" books, and so I read to see what the hulabaloo was all about.

It turns out that there are quite a bit of perks to kneading your baby that I wasn't aware of. The one that caught my attention, increased sleeping time. Boo-yah! Much to the consternation of my moral wife, I stashed the magazine in my coat pocket for a walk-through guide to becoming a manly masseus once we returned home.

After feeding my daughter and changing her diaper I walked through the step-by-step (simplified) rub down routine.

First things first, rub some olive oil in the palm of your hands to warm before rubbing it on your baby. Check. Now, rub your baby gently from the forhead, over the scalp, and down her nape. She responded well, and I didn't mind the added benefit of her smelling like anyou  italian restaraunt either.

Next, using the pads of your fingers, rub outward from her neck to her shoulders. Now she was really starting to settle into it.

After that, use your fingers to massage up and down along the length of her back, avoiding rubbing directly on her spine.

Then, rub up and down along her baby triceps. She was curling up at this point, so I gently grasped her palm and stretched out her arm. She didn't seem to mind one bit.

Move down to the legs and rub her hamstrings and calf muscles with the same motion as you did with her arms.

Flip that flapjack over and massage her torso on biceps exactly as you did along her back and triceps.

By the time I was done (a whole 10 minutes or so), that premie baby looked like she was floating on a cloud. Still somewhat skeptical about the massage working on the first try, I decided to swaddle her and lay her down in her bassinet (a surefire cause for crying), and . . . she's laying there, content. As a matter of fact, she has been relaxing in that bassinet for the last 45 minutes without so much as a peep. In all seriousness, I keep checking up on her to make sure that she is still breathing.

Had I not tried baby massage myself, I would have continued to brush it off as a fad. Of course, it was only our first time. But in the words of Davy Jones, "I saw her face. Now I'm a believer."

New to Blogging . . . and Being a Dad.

The amount of poop in my house increased tenfold a few weeks ago as the result of bringing my first born child, Harper, home from the hospital. Born one month premature, Harper is a beautiful, baby girl who has filled our home and my heart with love. She has also inspired in me a desire to be an informed, involved, papa.

Growing up as an only child, I envied the boys who had younger sisters to protect and defend. It seemed like the life of a superhero to me, and I could tell that those baby sisters idolized their big brothers, regardless of any attitude that they copped.

As a 25-year old daddy, I get to lace up the proverbial spandex and cape for the first time in my life as I learn to raise my daughter. Nothing excites me more than watching her exist. I digest books, magazines, and blogs about parenting and being an involved father. The moment I arrive home from a hard day in the elementary classroom I ditch the shirt and tie and get into my play clothes, sweep my daughter into my arms and talk to her about her day. I've noticed that her eyes are more able to focus on my face each time we have this debriefing, and with each glance at me, my heart is more able to focus on her.

Those bonding moments are important and priceless, but they are interrupted by nap time quite often. During those "breaks" I like to learn more about parenting, child development, and supporting my wife in our efforts to raise our daughter. In an attempt to make this relationship with parenting information reciprocal I decided to start Poop Culture, my blog about my adventures as a new dad. Here, I'll share my ideas, findings, suggestions, and thoughts about raising my daughter. Hopefully, you might find nuggets of gold that might help your personal adventure in understanding and raising your children too . . . even if those nuggets have a little poop on them.